I am delighted to welcome Kathy Irwin as a guest blogger this month, as we ring in a new year and she reflects on the power of making new choices.
“I don’t want to go.” That was the chatter inside my mind the moment that I woke up on New Years Day.
I went into the Fall MagicMind* series with the bud of desire to start taking care of myself. One small piece of that includes reconnecting with the freedom that I once felt while running and one wet Sunday afternoon, I found myself looking at a pair of my mother’s runners, putting them on and walking out the door. My mother had been an avid walker and it was as though her spirit was with me in those runners on that day in a cold, wet rain.
I posted about that walk in Facebook and the next day received an e-mail with three links along with one very simple question from fellow MagicMinder, Catherine. “Are you ready to take the next step?” The links were to a 5k run, a 10k run and an interval training program. I didn’t think; I simply responded, “Deal”.
Catherine very generously went out with me three times per week and re-introduced me to interval training. I didn’t have to think, I didn’t have to time anything, I just had to, as Nordina and Kim once said to me, “put one foot in front of the other”.
Fast forward to January 1, 2016 with a few stops and stutters along the way and I woke up to my first goal – the 5K Resolution Run. It was cold outside, warm and cozy inside and my resistance was showing up big time. “I don’t want to go.”
As I was laying in bed, a powerful realization formed. If I didn’t go, I would carry this choice with me for the rest of the year. I wasn’t not going because of injury or illness. I wasn’t not going because I was feeling scared. Who was I kidding? I can’t run 5k.
After I quick text to Catherine to say that my resistance was showing up big time, I got dressed in my running gear.
One way or another I was doing this; I wanted my first choice of 2016 to set my year up to be a positive one.
Good thing. Catherine’s response, quoting Star Trek: “Resistance is futile.”
It was a stretch for me. Post by post, tree by tree, I walked and “shuffled” my way around the course and participated my first 5k in 30 years.
As I was out there, two things struck me:
1) I must stand up to myself and resist the desire to hang on to the old patterns and beliefs that no longer serve me; and
2) that, as Raylene said in our last Fall MagicMind session, “we can’t do this alone”.
The power of being part of MagicMind, mindfulness retreats and workshops like SoulSetting is intentionally creating relationships with people who are like-minded and want to support you in being the best that you can be. And that, my very dear friends, is priceless.
- by Kathy Irwin
*MagicMind is a twice-yearly series of facilitated group coaching sessions designed to create a powerful system of accountability and support to take meaningful action every day. If you are interested email us!